10-6-99
URBAN MIDDLE CLASS BOYS ARE MORE AMICABLE, AMENABLE AND OPEN TO NEW FRIENDSHIP, OPEN TO PHYSICAL EXPERIENCES, UNLIKE THE LMC AND SLUM CLASS BOYS WHO ARE HOT TEMPERED, HAUGHTY AND VIOLENT.
Got the posting order after much persuasion, Chanda, Saha morose!
11-6-99
My woes not ended- as good as no post at all- no office, no staff, no vehicle only targets - demoralised.
12-6-99 Saturday
I started with entering 'suspension' in biodata. It snowballed into a punishment non-post. Adhikari harped on it. Others picked up. Now Saha tells about roaming here and there and saving. How many people will function as vigilance officers?!
Bombay is a complicated system. Travelling from one place to another requires so many clarifications. Likewise, every other aspect, even getting salary needs many travelling, moving here and there.
Life here is different and difficult and depressing.
Never worry about vehicle or any office support . It will be only a nuisance and burden. Better to move around and not to remain stagnant, use public transport, understand it and it may become friendly. But it is harmless and does not invite attention and envy and bad feelings.
After completing one work I am entering into another phase which requires some thinking only to plan the action. It may look like confusion, but it is only my lack of awareness. I am weak in assessing the present position, assessing resources available, where I want to go. If I cultivate this, the confusion will vanish.
Morover, I am getting nightmarish about travel and accidents. I must learn first aid and trained care, minor surgery, pharmaceutical licencing etc.
